LOSER

2006-01-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

ah why do my old blogs still exist ? i thought i deleted them already. ew my posts were so disgusting. the way i wrote them was so.. eeeeeeyer. i should really change my blogskin. move to somewhere else perhaps. and maybe blog once a year.

i stand for justice, not for good friends

2005-10-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

i’m sorry. i don’t know whether what i did was correct or wrong. but i’m sorry, really sorry to those people i offended in any way. sorry elaine, sorry penelope, sorry. i probably offended limei too, who knows. but i really thought she should know how the class felt. and if limei’s angry at you, i’m sorry. i’m sorry i took that and printed it and showed it to limei. at first i just said, a certain someone commented on a certain someone’s blog. then limei wanted to know who, so i told her. then shi min asked if i printed it, because nicole sent an apology to limei and i printed it in case limei didn’t check her email. so i said yes, and limei wanted to read it, so i passed it to her. whether that was right or not, i really don’t know. but if she didn’t read that, she wouldn’t know how the class felt, and she’ll keep thinking that the whole class is in the wrong. i mean, of course it’s not only limei’s fault, but you have to understand she was hurt too. because she did a lot and tried to coordinate the class and it seemed like nobody cared. like penelope said,

" you know what, i don't feel guilty at all. sure she had put in a lot of effort, but i'm sure all the actresses and the props people also put in a lot of effort with their own part. perhaps she did like the MOST thinking of the most important thing ( which is evidently the script but oh well ) but there were others who chipped in as well. like chngyan and shimin and whoever else. you don't see shimin kicking up a big fuss about everything, okay maybe she did but she didn't keep going on about I DID THIS I DID THAT YOU DIDN'T DO THIS YOU DIDN'T DO THAT. in life there are always, yes always, things that we have to learn from. being a leader isn't always about leading leading and leading. leadership is about serving. and service is helping others. when you do something, you don't ASK for credit. neither do you keep ranting about you doing the whole damn thing. you know just now i was feeling really bad, but later when i thought about it, i guess it probably isn't us. it could be her. yes sure it's BOTH parties fault and the class and the said person feel bad. i don't know about her but i'm sure quite a few of us feel bad about it. but i don't see what wrong we've done. i mean even if we ( okay excluding me since i'm not in the production, other than props ) can't do it well, we try and try and TRY again. this drama nite thinggaye isn't about WINNING, it's about WORKING HARD together as a class, having fun ( and the class spirit thing ) and presenting our best. it never is easy organising something, neither is it easy to present something on stage, within such a short period of time. we ALL make mistakes. but i personally feel that that remark that she passed was really too much. it went OVERBOARD. she's looking down on us. well, sort of. why can't she just POINT out the mistakes nicely and friendly-ly and we all work it out together. i don't know, but i don't feel bad at all. did you see her msn nick? i didn't bother to reply to anything she said to me because i felt so pissed. when you help others do stuff ( and in this case, the script ) you don't say HEY I DID IT DON'T USE IT IT'S COPYRIGHTED. you do it from the bottom of your heart, with sincerity. you want the best for the class, so let them GET ON WITH IT. sure i really wanted to apologise to her just now but no. i can't be bothered anymore. perhaps this whole drama nite thing will kill us. and dampen our class spirit. and it doesn't really help, with netball carnival coming up and everything. you'd probably say i'm being mean and all that crap because practically the whole class is against her now, but as much as we're reflecting on what WE have done to her, i guess she should REFLECT on what she has done to us as well. okay enough said, i'm getting tired. i'm too pissed to bother about all these already. i just made myself sound really stupid but i meant it. "

sorry i’m posting this all over again, but i think it really makes sense. i just wanted limei to know. limei please don’t get angry.. it’s both parties’ fault, and they should just apologise and make up. come on, the auds are like, on monday! a lot of people have been blogging about her and it seems like the whole world is against her. those posts you people posted, i can’t say i disagree with any of them. everyone’s blog i’ve read makes perfect sense, but practically everyone is looking from their own point of view. i feel like quoting everybody. but if i do, i have to ask their permission. yes and i have penelope’s permission! i shall ask others next time. I STAND FOR JUSTICE, NOT FOR GOOD FRIENDS. (ahem penelope that’s my line)

so today was netball carn. we did well! and we probably could have won at least third if we had not been disqualified from those two games / the shooting competition. shaina has magic hands. she shot like, practically all the goals. THANKS SHAINA. we love you <3

yesterday, lieting broke her finger. man it sounded pretty serious, with all that blood and seeing her bone and crushing of finger and the ambulance coming and wheeling her away and into the operation theatre. oh my gosh, i can’t imagine what she went through. all i know is that she stayed strong and i hope she’s ok. God bless lieting. so obviously she didn’t play for our class, but apparently someone saw her at the walkway. our angel class came down to support us! haha they’re so nice. and they win everything. they won drama night. they won netball carn. they won national day. they won racial harmony day. our class was unable to carry on that glory that 104`04 brought 104.

104`05 is a class with very strong individuals (i’m not talking about myself) but the problem is, we’re not bonded. if only, we had team spirit, i’m sure we can achieve a lot of things. right, not like i contributed. this is probably our last week as a class and we should treasure it, don’t fight over drama night. those people i’ve offended or quoted and are angry, i apologise, sincerely. forgive me, please?

2005-10-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVER.
For RGS girls, it's party time for their eoys are over!
Don't talk about exams. Ok so after math today, we were supposed to go for the principal's address, but in the end we didn't. and mrs tan talked to us, like li mei, shi min and me. She asked like, what we were going to do since our exams were over, where we were going, in our school uniform or not, and ENJOY ! yayy she's nice just that she asked practically everyone the same thing.. so we collected our class tee. Aiya I can't say it's ugly because it's not but the font for our names is erm weird. They changed the font! And the bright pink became more of a dull pink. They spelt chng yan's name as chng yah. Anyway, after that, li mei, shi min and I took 190 to lot 1. we changed then took neos. Ahh I never look at camera. yah then we designed them then chose how we wanted the photos to be like. Like during the last second, shi min pressed CLEAR ALL. Then all of us freaked out. We thought we paid $7 for nothing. Then shi min kept apologizing. But in the end they printed lah ! then we ate sakae sushi! I ate four plates and so did li mei and shi min. then we went shopping. I bought celene's present. And li mei's very belated one too. I still owe shi min IT'S OVER.For RGS girls, it's party time for their eoys are over!Don't talk about exams. Ok so after math today, we were supposed to go for the principal's address, but in the end we didn't. and mrs tan talked to us, like li mei, shi min and me. She asked like, what we were going to do since our exams were over, where we were going, in our school uniform or not, and ENJOY ! yayy she's nice just that she asked practically everyone the same thing.. so we collected our class tee. Aiya I can't say it's ugly because it's not but the font for our names is erm weird. They changed the font! And the bright pink became more of a dull pink. They spelt chng yan's name as chng yah. Anyway, after that, li mei, shi min and I took 190 to lot 1. we changed then took neos. Ahh I never look at camera. yah then we designed them then chose how we wanted the photos to be like. Like during the last second, shi min pressed CLEAR ALL. Then all of us freaked out. We thought we paid $7 for nothing. Then shi min kept apologizing. But in the end they printed lah ! then we ate sakae sushi! I ate four plates and so did li mei and shi min. then we went shopping. I bought celene's present. And li mei's very belated one too. I still owe shi minIT'S OVER.For RGS girls, it's party time for their eoys are over!Don't talk about exams. Ok so after math today, we were supposed to go for the principal's address, but in the end we didn't. and mrs tan talked to us, like li mei, shi min and me. She asked like, what we were going to do since our exams were over, where we were going, in our school uniform or not, and ENJOY ! yayy she's nice just that she asked practically everyone the same thing ><>< yah then we designed them then chose how we wanted the photos to be like. Like during the last second, shi min pressed CLEAR ALL. Then all of us freaked out. We thought we paid $7 for nothing. Then shi min kept apologizing. But in the end they printed lah ! then we ate sakae sushi! I ate four plates and so did li mei and shi min. then we went shopping. I bought celene's present. And li mei's very belated one too. I still owe shi min from like, JANUARY ?! ok and she owes me a big big doggy next year. Then we took bus to shi min's house where we played the piano and played dai di then MONOPOLY. Haha it was so funny can ? shi min ended up owing li mei like $8000+ and me $890. I ended up with $32 (my register number) and shi min owed me $890. yah ok I mentioned that. And li mei, aiya she ah, she took all the money from the bank and mortaged all of shi min’s property. Strand is a good place. We keep landing there ! ok then I went home. And slept. And am going to. HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY CELENE ! geog on her birthday. TRAGIC. Ok I should go sleep now.

2005-10-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

every time i want to blog about something, i make a mental note in my mind to do so. then in the end, there’s no time. so ? don’t blog. then days, weeks, months, years after, i forget. so, i end up not blogging about it. never mind. die vanessa die. you don’t understand math, geog, chinese, english, french, history, lit, bio, everything ! just in case you didn’t know, your eoys are in week 6. in case you didn’t know, inunion is the third week of november. you have to buck up. if you don’t, you die. just in case you forgot, lit is next week. everything else is crammed up in week 6. bio and history are on the same day. ok what. you still have your philo pt and a lot of catching up to do. plus homework and packing of files. start mugging already ! and since you have your instru with you, take it out and prac during your free time ! don’t spend time doing not constructive, unconstructive, inconstructive, disconstructive, non constructive stuff. aiya go and learn your english ! i like my instru’s serial number. so nice. so easy to remember. anyway. today we had aesthetics. during the break, some of us went to the field to play pepsi cola. it was so fun can. everyone was like screaming and screaming away. then after lunch, we played it again. then a teacher told us not to because it’s too hot. please lorh, a little sun is good for you. not like we’re going to stay there for long. won’t get heatstroke so easily. and we’re thirteen for goodness sake. we know when we’re feeling sick. we know when to get out of the sun. anyway. i think our class is getting more bonded ! yayy. the back door is spoilt. first the handle came out. then now something else came out and we can’t open the door from outside. only inside. the word for today is BELT. how to use it : you are such a belt ! definition: square, irritating. ok a few of us made that up and lie ting wrote it on the board. so funny. time for me to go back and revise what we’ve learnt. otherwise, i’ll be so far behind i can’t catch up and blah blah blah. ok. i need to do philo pt. and geog exercise three. now. and math. geog. whatever. everything. i have to. my posts are getting shorter. but you can't blame me. no time what.

2005-09-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

ICCS. ahhh. saturday all sec ones went to east coast park to pick litter. we picked for, ahh who knows how long. i think our group was like, the most hardworking ? we picked up like 11kg of rubbish. and our rubbish bag broke. so we put the broken rubbish bag into another group's rubbish bag.
we found some er. disgusting stuff. it's like, HELLO. can't you do it in a PRIVATE PLACE ?! do in public for what. then we were like, so they come here and do at night. but they can't see anything ! so then how ? but that's the point ! so nobody can see them ! haha. anyway. joellyn and carolyn picked up that thing and then joellyn was like squish squish squish with her BARE HANDS because she didn't know what it was. then it's like after that she found out and started freaking out. then the worst thing is that she accidentaly touched her mouth ! like, touch that thing then touch her mouth. and the thing touched that part. so joellyn indirectly touched that part. ew.
we found a decomposing fish and crab. carolyn picked up a dead rat. we kind of slacked for the last half an hour or so. we sat on the rock thing and screamed and sit and talk and the waves splashed on us and our shoes. so nice (: we screamed ms ha's name but apparently she didn't hear us. i bet she didn’t even notice we were slacking.
then we did installation art; a crab. i like practically dug my head into the rubbish to look for well, rubbish. ahhh SORRY NICOLE. she said i flick flick flick the rubbish then went onto her face so now she got pimples. aiya i didn’t know.. sorry. i think i hurt a lot of people that day. as in physically hurt. and i didn’t know it was happening. this post is so short. too short. oh and that stupid woman forgot about my screw. ahh scr*w her.

2005-09-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

i want this to be a really long post so i can make up for my absence for how long ? i don't know.

ahem. i wonder how long it's been since a proper post. this time i'm blogging in a different way and MANS. i want to change blogskin ! but i can't find any i like and damn i can't make my own. i seriously am in desperate need of a new blogskin.

ok so, well, well. it's like the second consecutive week we don't have to bring home our instrus. which means no practising which leads to embarrassing myself in front of like, everybody yet again. i always cannot play. i don't know whatever natural trumpet whatever that is. i can't play that. apparently im er, trying too hard ? forget it. everytime my mouth opens it's band band and band.

ZIP.

ok it's thursday, teachers' day. HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers out there, whether or not i know you or like you. thank you for this holiday.

oh and i finished my "with great PRESSURE" ! so WOW right. like i bet you'll never believe me. so guai. finish homework so fast. well, technically, not really so fast. we got this thing from at the beginning of the year. yeah. so, not fast.

holidays are coming. i haven't started on yue du bao gao. got FIVE leh ! i am so dead, thank you very much.

MACS FOR LUNCH !

ok that was so random. yesterday was teachers' day celebration. first we had this performance by a sec three malay girl. honestly, i found it real boring. what kind of contemperary dance was that ?! so hou lian pi larh she. dance ALONE. and she think she dance so nice some more. like everybody loved her dance. like real. then we had the term 2 sls dance ! HEY JULIET ! love that song (: i didn't know liang zi could dance. ok but her moves are so exaggerated. reminds me of SOMEONE. then the term 3 sls dance. then the teachers surprise performance. HAHA. very funny. not surprising at all man. i saw and heard them practising in the band room on monday larh. and the teachers don't sing very well. ok not saying i sing well but, really, they should go listen to themselves sing before they sing in front of the whole school. then was prize-giving. there was like this prize for the most skippy teacher. they gave her a skipping rope -.- the next one was like, most enthu, comical like that larh. then they said it was a uniform group commander. ms sally wong. both ms sally wongs reacted. but the other one, not our ms sally wong went up to get the prize. im like, HEY. not you can ! it's the other ms sally wong. then ms pantene. ms tay su chin or something. then mr pantene. obviously IVAN SOH right. see how many times he flips his hair a day. and they gave him this wig thing. and he flipped flipped flipped his hair so many times then put on the wig and took it out. flip flip flip then put the other way and flip. ok then community singing and cheering. while we were all singing ivan soh was waving his wig. and he's so ego can. he cupped his hand over his ear before they announced mr pantene. it's like he KNEW he was going to get it. whatever, MR EGO !

i didn't go back to mg. mg doesn't like old girls who went to better schools. don't ask me why. not that mg is a bad school or anything, in fact it's quite a good school. but oh well.

yayy gilbert is back. phan is gone. BYEBYE. oh seriously, i failed my controle. and EOY for french is like end of september. ok i think EOYs also start around that time. MAN.

i now belong to the blur pokks' association. bpa for short. it consists of me, ada and shi min. shi min's the president, i'm the chairman, and ada's the tablelady. in case you didn't notice, tablelady is like the opposite of chairman. and we're all the same status. membership is full. we can't afford to recruit anyone else. sorry ada and shi min. i can't go for bpa outing. i can't. i really can't. i sorry. i'm very sorry. SORRY ! i feel so bad. i was the naggy one who kept reminding them not to forget about the bpa outing and blahblahblah. but in the end i can't go. sorry guys. another time ok ?

do you know who is the nicest senior in the www [whole wide world]? why, it's so obvious. ADA ! i love ada. yayy.

oh me shi min eunice and nicole went to give teachers' day presents to our teachers. we wanted mr connolly to come out so we shouted "LORD GOVERNER KING" and he really came out. then he looked at the certificate and said "one of the... WHAT ?! you mean there's more than one ?!" like DIAO.

later at 5 i went to shi min's house to do english pt. actually i didn't do much. but i ate a lot. i must remember to bring something for shi min the next time i go to her house. and not eat so much. oh nicole and cassandra was there too. and when i was going to leave, i was like "oh sheesh. my thumbdrive. then i went to the study but i couldn't find it on the table or on the floor. then i searched my bag and felt my pocket. i walked out "it was in my pocket all along" so blur. haha.

english pt and yue du ce zi(s) due tomorrow.

oh and did i ever mention i love the song hey juliet ? if no, now you know (:

MACS FOR LUNCH. I CAN'T WAIT (x

ok this post didn't turn out to be long after all..

2005-08-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

construction under process.
sorry for the inconvienience. (:

2005-06-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

it's been forever since i last blogged.
ok it's been two weeks since hols started.
they just went by like that.
so fast.
haven't even started on hw yet.
DIEDIEDIE.
ok so.
thailand trip was hmm..
ok larh.
not great
not bad.
yeah.
i just came back fr church camp so i shall talk bout it.
hold on.
i go for dinner first then come back to blog.
heh (:

2005-05-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel the urg to blog.
hmmm...
that's weird.
anywayy...
it's sunday liaoo
tmr'll be an UBER LONG day for me.
first.
morning got recruit band
then get back got chinese tuition.
then got piano lesson.
then got dunno what.
dunno.
dun care.
arghh.
tues got dunno whatever first aid course.
i've gotta leave at 5 SHARP.
and i mean, FIVE O'CLOCK SHARPP.
i gotta catch a plane ya see..
yes and woahh.
my sis is going FREE.
yes. REALLY!!
two adults=one child free
uh-huh.
going then come back on sunday
then wed got church camp until sat.
does that mean no band??
hah :P
i think, nonono KNOW i am mean.
yes i know it perfectly well.
i gossip and sometimes i dunno why.
i just yak and yak and yak and dunno what the heck am i talking bout.
it sounds weird.
almost impossible i know.
so...
i haven't touched any hw so far.
and im not even excited bout the hols
somehoww...
this is----baaad
and.
i can't play.
i SERIOUSLY can't play.
kai chi and wei qi are like so much better larh.
maybe i shdn't have joined band.
or maybe i shd have joined another section.
WHY ON EARTH DID ZIYI CHANGE TO PERCS.
i mean, now no more eupho liao
and percs and FOUR ppl!!
WTH.
i think that's totally unfair.
can't she just carry on??
like me??
so what if she doesn't like it.
she thinks i LURV it?!?
seriously.
this is..
argh NVM.
i shan't talk bout it anymore.
it'll only make me feel worse.
but i guess
i'll stay on.
cos of my lurv for music.
and hmm.
our batch is STILL not bonded!!
it's like, only a few of us are talking to each other.
mostly 1/4 and 1/9 peeps.
plus the clarinets.
and chloe.
soooooooo.
i really DO hope our batch'll be more bonded.
like the sec 3s.
but hah.
that's impossible can.
i bet no one really cares larh.
just care bout themselves.
SELFISH.
BAAAAHHHH.
penelope's so cutee!!
nononononooNONONONONO.
ADORABLE more like it.
and i don't understand why some ppl are so thick-skinned.
you know
THAT person just went up to mavis and lydia and gang
and went
"NI3 WEI4 SHE3 ME4 BA2 WO3 MING2 ZI4 CA1 DIAO4?!?!? WO3 BEN3 LAI2 JIU4 ZAI4 NI3 ZU2 LI3 DE MA!!"
come across someone who votes herself for sl?!?!
someone who will walk right behind you
then when you start running she follows?!?
come across someone who seems to appear right beside you when you're talking to some other ppl?!?!
someone who says "are you talking bout me?? if you are, just say it out loud. i don't mind."
have you?!?! HAVE YOU?!!!!?!!???!
WTH.
i think EVERYONE hates her.
TOTALLY.
im being mean here.
but well...
it's true mahh.
heh.
anywayy.
wo jiang ta xin qing jiu bu hao liao
don't care.
AWWW MAN.
gtg do theory noww.
later kanna scolding fr piano teacher.
BLEAH.
lucky not having piano exam this yr or else i think i'll diee.
and when m i gonna get back my theor exam results??
church camp- tribe 1-jasper-orange-`yayy. (:
i wonder what the youths are gonna do.
our schedule's the most hectic.
reach there then start liao.
the adults and children.
children esp.
so slack larh.
they're programme
adults: start at 4
children: start at 7/730. forgot.
youths:130.
and here are our lights out time
adults:1030
children: 9/930. forgot.again.
youths: 11/1130/12. diff days diff timing
can you see the diff?!?!
the BIG diff?!?!
life is unfair.
never fair.
i REALLY have to go noww.
going for apple crumble(:

report card

2005-05-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

here goes--

English Language: 73% [A]
Median: 65%
Grade point: 3.6
Comments: Vanessa actively participates in her group discussions.
My interpretation: I don't wanna tell we actually don't have group discussions but still, i write sth nice for her larh. And im boring so im gonna write same thing for everyone.

Higher Chinese: 52% [C] (i KNOW this is DAMN LAN.don't rub it in)
Median: 71%
Grade Point: 2.0
Comments: Shang Lin is a quiet worker, she has to be more analytical and aim for depth of knowledge.
My interpretation: This gurl arhh. -tsktsk- i for got there's a hyphen in her name!! yarh she damn quiet in class and doesn't like to think. (did i ever mention i hate thinking?? hmmm..)

Mathematics: 80% [A+] (btw it was rounded up. i missed by 5/28 mark to 80 you see..)
Median: 78%
Grade Point: 4.0 (this is the ONLY pathetic A+ i got and it's not really an A+)
Comments: Vanessa is generally managing her learning well. She is encouraged to be more active in class discussions.
My interpretation: Vanessa's work is generally ok larh. but then hor, she talk at wrong time lehh. nv listen to me one.

Geography: 77% [A]
Median: 72%
Grade Point: 3.6
Comments: Vanessa is a focussed(this wasn't an accident-she really spelt it liddat) pupil who takes her learning seriously.
My interpretation: Vanessa this person arhh. aiyaa i don't care bout her larh. so long she do ok then i say the same thing as the rest lorh.

History: 67 [B+]
Median: 66%
Grade Point: 3.2
Comments: Vanessa has a(this wasn't an accident either.mr wolfe doesn't know his english) amiable personality. She is a very capable student and has been consistent in her work. She is a diligent student and needs to strive to learn new skills and concepts.
My interpretation: The front part is anyhow put one larh. The rest i write the same as the rest larh. i will write long long so her parents will think im such a GREAT teacher. write such long comments for her. she stupid larh. dunno how to absorb things i teach her. all the skills and concepts i teach in class hor she nv apply. that shows how UNATTENTIVE she is and how she always falls asleep in class.

English Literature: 71% [A]
Median: 71%
Grade Point: 3.6
Comments: Vanessa has the potential to do better at Literature, and she ought not to feel comfortable with the marks she has achieved so far. The study of Shakespeare next term will require greater effort.
My interpretation: Vanessa's lit is very lau ya. she did so badly. next erm if you don't get what i want you to, you're dead.

Lower Secondary Science(physics): 73% [A]
Median:73%
Grade Point: 3.6
Comments: Vanessa is a quiet and conscientious student. She is encouraged to participate more actively in class discussions.
My interpretation: i dunno ANYTHING bout this gurl. so i go ask other teachers what they wrote then copy lorh.

Character & Leadership Education: Vanessa is a co-operative member of the class. She appers to have adjusted suitably to secondary school life.
My interpretation: she stays back to help out at least. I THINK. i THINK she adjust ok to sec sch life liao, although i dunno. just let her parents be not so worried larh. say sth comforting after all the nasty comments and marks she got.

Grade Point Average: 3.37

yupp.that's it.i did so badly. *sob*
nvm.
shall try harder next semester.
i must do well.
i must.
and tday we had a trumpet tutor come down.
i cldn't play infront of the snrs.
but when they left, it was like..
no more pressure.
ok whatever.
i guess i can't work well under pressure...
oh and PUHLEASE ignore my other posts. as in what i wrote last time larh. i cldn' think straight.and i was under lotsa stress. pls forgive me if i've offended youu... and i pin-pointed one person. SORRIEE!!
oh and buhbyee mr wolfe. thankew for everything. you like what 104 gave you? hah. we're so nicee . -egoego- (:

2005-05-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

eois have been over for quite some time
but i haven't been blogging.
whyy??
dunno -.-
so.
as predicted, i did really badly for eois
esp hcl. [CARELESSSSS]
yes.
and well math wasn't so bad
30/35 (-1 for presentation) [DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY CARELESS MISTAKES I MADE?!]
physics sucked
20/30 (test)
8/10 (pt)
eng was ok.
24/30
geog was not bad
18/20
hist ahhh. at least i passed
17/28 (pt)
is there anything else?
hmmm.
anywayy.
i had so many things to say just noww but noww...
arghh i forgot everything i wanted to say liao
ohh
geog pt was due tday.
my brochure print so many times still cannot
so i don't care larh.
just hand up
theen the hilda taba cause and effect analysis table was arghh
dunno whether do correctly or not
then now we still have 3 pts:
-hcl
-rs/math (combined)
-lit
WHAT KIND OF HOLIDAY IS THIS
and what's that cpr course for anyway
DON'T TELL ME.. WE'RE GONNA DO..
MOUTH TO MOUTH----------------
OMG.
NO WAYY.
arghh.
anywayy.
i've been really dao mei lately
for pft 5 items i do not wish to elaborate
noww.
after a LOOOONG time of no band
it has resumed again
and gang hao i have ulcur on my gum AND tongue
WOAHHHH.
so cool right.
hurhur. WHATEVER.
so.
two more days of sch then hols liao!!
i simply can't wait.
but then all too soon it'll be back to sch..
whyy do hols always seem so short
but sch terms always seem so long??
HAIZ.
NO THIRD LANG ON FRIDAY!!
but that stupid teacher larh.
haven't marked finish our papers (as i predicted-again)
so haven't returned to us
then aft the hols we change teacher
then fri no third lang
howw.
HOWW.
DAMMIT LARH.
yesterday we had to stay back for dunno how many hours JUST for band foto taking
and take foto is like, less than 5 min!!
AND.
the second foto right.
the person was like, 1-2-3
*pause*
huhh? ohh take liao arhh??
*open mouth-ERRRR.*
*CLICK!!*
ok..
but i don't care liao larh.
anywayy it's just a damned foto.
so mr wolfe is leaving.
wo hen wu suo wei one larh.
so long the new teacher teaches well then i man zu le.
we saw the new teacher tday.
ms tay
hmmm.
looks fierce.
but i hope she's not!!
im running outa things to say.
NO.
I HAVE STH TO SAY.
********* ******* ******.
YES. IT'S TRUE KAYEE.
whatever larh.
so tmr's aesthetics (or however you spell it)
and im gonna dance with my HONEYY.
that's ling yan. or lin yang.
HAHA.
anywayy.
yesterday the person was lining our snrs up for foto taking right.
then he was counting...
19-20-21-
then gang hao 21 was AHEM and my DEAR's reg no.
then kimberley was just standing behind me
she mistook my "HONEYY" for AHEM.
that proves what i said just now too.
and a lot more things you'd probably wldn't believe.
but HECK.
nvm i think im mean.
yes in a lot of ways.
shan't tell you.
figure it out urself. ><
ppl who know me WILL know i AM mean.

=i'm gonna hold on tight and never let you go.i haven't given up on you.don't give up on urself=

2005-05-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

2.4 run.
was ok larh.
except for the fact that i MISSED 4 BL**DY SECONDS TO A BL**DY 'A'.
ok i soo can't believe this.
if only i hadn't walked.
if only. if only.
but it's over. over noww.
i can't do anything about it anymore.
anyway. we got back our hcl paper tday.
guess what.
i failed.
im perfectly serious, im absolutely NOT lying.
see the outcome?!?!
snrs?!?! if i prac as much as YOU do.
ill fail miserably.
WHAT THE SH*T.
THAT STUPID WOMAN EXPECTS US TO COMPLETE THE GEOG PT WHATEVER HILDA TABA'S CAUSE AND EFFECT ANALYSIS OF DEC 26 2004 TSUNAMI BY TMR.
AND GUESS WHAT.
SHE GAVE US THE PAPER ONLY LIKE WHAT.
YESTERDAY?!?!?!
how do you expect us to finish?!?!
don't you know we have other hw as well?!?!
NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND.
NO ONE. NO ONE AT ALL.
it's really sad.
so my family wants to go holiday.
but cos of MY schedule, everything is messed up.
dunno whether can go or not.
when to go.
then cannot clash with this and that and this and that.
sighh.
it's not that i die die must go.
not me. i don't mind not going actually.
and we have hist as well.
hmmph. whatever larh.
i hate humanities.
hate all subjects.
hate everything.
hate it hate it hate it.
but saying this is of no use.
cos you don't understand.
you simply don't understand me.
no one does.
no one. no one at all.
and guo tong's b'dae is like on fri.
i wanna buy prezzie for her but.
where got time...
with all the hw i have
with all the URGHH.
and i haven't prac for very long time liao.
wanted to prac then end up getting so much hw.
i wish i cold complain.
geog pt.
i spent damn much time on it and didn't get what i wanted.
apparently no one failed eng and physics pt.
good.
but then i failed hcl.
will i get kicked out??
hmmm. i wonder...
ling yan says no.
eng fail then get kicked out.
but heck.
dunno.
wait and see.
i better buck up!! ><
lit pt.
`yayy.
i guess all our hard work finally paid off.
24/25.
cool right.
everything was good, he said.
except that the script was too short.
of course larh.
we missed out one whole chunk of the script what.
then lit common test next wk.
geog test wk 10.
geog pt due wk 10.
this is not after exam oeriod, is it.
doesn't feel like it.
not at all.
so i wonder.
how i sound like now.
aft not practising for such a long time.
i bet i sound like SH*T.
this is so cool.
sec 3s 2.4 on fri so i guess no band AGAIN.
COOL RIGHT.
YEAHH.
soo. im STILL working on that silly embrochure of mine that won't change.
URGHHHHH.
maybe i shd just give up and forget it.

2005-05-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

i don't know.
i don't know why.
why life is is so sucky at times.
ok. first things first.
eois are over.
but so what?
we messed up our lit pt.
missed out one whole chunk of our script.
and not to mention that our script is already very short.
i think mr jc was kinda pissed with us.
as in cos some grps or practically EVERY grp except our grp didn't memorise their script.
but their scripts were good.
long. unlike ours. short and sweet
and why does it HAVE to be the part which is most important that is missed out?
whyy?!?!?!?!?!
we had a lot of practices.
we made an effort to memorise our scripts.
we had all our props and wore our costumes.
we were the most prepared grp. or shd i say the only prepared grp.
so we went first.
my costume wasn't really a costume.
it was more like pyjamas.
i said let me wear another top. i bring my own.
but they insisted on me wearing that ah ma clothing.
SORRY LI MEI!!
fine then now eois.
i flunked physics.
failed chinese.
made so many UBER CARELESS MISTAKES in math.
didn't write enough for geog.
WOAHHHHHH.
I AM GOING TO DO SO WELL.
HMMPH.
band.
eois ms.
you expect me to prac like i do usually??
unless you want me to fail my eois.
im NOT a superwoman.
i won't be able to do well or just pass without studying properly.
see? even when i studied. see what happened??
and you're angry at me for not practicing.
ok. i KNOW i HAVE to prac.
but please. spare a thought for me can.
you also need to study.
and you tell me to do well for eois.
howw. how am i supposed to when you want me to prac like you do??
so i don't know how much you prac but i reckon it's A LOT.
you don't understand, do you?
NO YOU DON'T.
you don't take piano.
I take piano.
i need to practice also you know?
esp when im going to take my gr 8 practical next year.
i don't want to fail.
i want to do well.
and i have homework also you know?
i know you have too but.
we also have pts.
you also have.
but you are sec 3s.
we are just mere sec 1s.
what do you expect from us??
to play like you?
to finish work as quickly as you do?
to prac as long as you do?
what. you don't say of course we don't know larh.
but you're just being unreasonable.
i don't care if you hate me.
so you're angry. pissed. peeved at me for not practicing.
shall i show you my report card?
then will you believe me?
that i need more time to concentrate on my studies??
you don't get it, do you?!?!?!
so i should probably just quit band and join some other very slack cca.
something that you don't need to prac.
something that's easy.
sometimes i feel.
you're very hateful.
YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.
fine.
i don't feel like talking abou this anymore.
you dao me?
i dao you.
simple as that.
i was feeling very high just now.
now just talking about this has really dampened my spirits.
you've probably made me lose my passion for music.
i love music. but
I HATE IT WHEN I'M BEING PUSHED. I HATE IT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?!?!
DON'T YOU EVER UNDERSTAND?!?!?!
french.
we've got a new teacher.
always pick on me.
what can i say.
HE SUX.
I HATE HIM.
and i'm beginning to hate french.
i hate stress.
I HATE IT WHEN I'M BEING PUSHED. GET IT?!?!!
this is what i posted on msn spaces:
Oh well. Eois are drawing nearer and nearer each day. I just don’t understand. Why. Why our damn teachers HAVE to dump us SOOO much hw. WHYYY. And WHYY do they HAVE to book us for not doing our hw. I mean, we’re given so much hw, we don’t have enuff time to complete it. Plus ppl who have third lang.. those with ccas that require you to stay back for like, 3 days and dunno how long each day (thank goodness not my cca). Somehow, some ppl can hold out, can cope with all that stress they have. All their duties. Some ppl are just so capable. Sometimes I wonder how they can do it. HOWW. I wish I cld be like them. But im not. And that’s that. No point complaining now. I still have to study for ARGHHHH math and geog. And hcl. Sometimes life seriously sux. I don’t care. So what if it’s rgs. You can push us a bit more but NOT to this extent!! Im going mad. Seriously. I hardly have time to myself. I hardly have time to practice my trumpet. And that means letting down my seniors which I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT wish to do so. yes and ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! hcl is tmr. math AND geog are on wed and those two subbies need lotsa revising. i'm currently TRYING to mug hard. although i think i'm not successful. uh-huh and bleah. i still have physics pt. and lit pt. but that's grp work larh. then have lit common test. what else. really dun have the mood to study. dun have the mood to do ANYTHING. i just wanna slack like siao. why can't life be like a tape or cd or sth. whichever part we don't like, just fast forward it. whyy.WHYY. and if we wanna make sth happen again, all we have to do is rewind. then if you like a certain moment, can always pause. WHYYWHYYWHYY. sometimes life seriously sux.
I MISS MLLE NG!! mlle ng why must you leave us. WHYY. we'll ALL miss you. and mlle ng. you rock. you only scold the boys. yayy. =) mlle ng. as celene said, only when the new teacher comes, then we will know how good you really are. we know you're a good teacher. we probably won't EVER meet such a nice teacher again. a teacher who would let us eat in class. MLLE NG'S THE BEST. THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST. we'll miss you, mlle ng. and thurs you're already leaving singapore. so fast. but we won't forget you. you'll be etched in our minds forever and ever and everrrr........ pls. you MUST come back soon to visit us and bring along your baby too kaye??
bises.
//vanessa *my trumpet.my music.my life.

sorry. i'm afraid the last part (*my trumpet.my music.my life.) IS JUST FOR SHOW.
i can't stand the sight of you anymore.
go away.
LIFE SUX. MOST TEACHERS SUCK. EVERYTHING SUX.
depression.sorrow.hatred.mixed up feelings.

2005-04-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

i wanna change blogskin!!
i'm sick of this one.
soooo
im planning to change it to a me to you bear one.
combining lotsa blogskins...
yupp
gonna take lotsa time
so ill prob do it during the june hols
that is, if i haf enuff time.
whatever.
me to you bears are so CUTE!!
j'aime me to you bears.
nononono
j'adore me to you bears
yayyy.

=j'adore me to you bears. je t'adore<3<3=

2005-04-16T12:18:00.000+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!
RGSSB GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!!
I LURV YOU GUYS!!
WE ALL DO!!
syf was yesterday.
i was so sian cos i kept listening to the same song over and over again dunno how many thousand millions of times.
i wonder how the judges can take it.
i thot rgssb was GREAT!!
cos we WERE!!
or rather our seniors and jamie and hillary were
although we din get presentation..
NVM cos we still did veh well and those who took part in syf tried their best.
after syf i saw minmin cry.
i realli dunno why she cried.
i felt so...
i dunno how to put it.
but why???
why did she cry?!?!
i dun see ani reason why she shd cry.
they all did veh well what.
i shan't say what happened when the results were announced.
sth veh pai seh happened.
then.
last nite i was toking to guo tong
she also so nice!!
SO NICE!!
she ALSO offered to tutor me ^^
realli.
ARGHHH!!
OUR SENIORS ARE SO NICE!!
the worse i feel if i can't play well.
gaahhh
i can't help it
i just don't have that ability
then SEC 4S ARE TAKING US THIS TERM!!
how dead am i
VERY
guo tong says i'm pessimistic.
and she's so nice!!
she rmbs the sec 1s!!
i bet if it were anyone else.. they PROBABLY won't bother to rmb us.
guo tong and han xin are so tall.
im so jealous
then u noe what
guo tong said me and kai chi look alike!!
like, we SO do NOT.
aniwaes...
OUR SENIORS RROOCCKK!!
yes they do they realli do
we're all so happi for them
and good job!!
that goes to jamie and hillary too
yay!! yall did veh well
i especially liked the ocean song.
i hope. HOPE we will do well next time too.

=gold with honours. they got it. they got it. so we must get it. and we will get it too.=

2005-04-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

i've been neglecting my blog.
i hafn't blogged in ages.
dun haf time lahh.
ok i can't rmb everything that happened.
it was like, so long ago?
so i TRY to rmb significant events lahh
on monday we had sports fest.
reached toa payoh stadium at 9.30
then we started mass dance prac at onli 10+
then we had march past rehearsal
then it was the real thing
i'm sorta happi mass dance is over at last
i mean, we practiced mass dance for dunno how long just to dance for like, 3+ minutes?
but aniwaes..
waddle won 2 prizes(i think)
one for first for C2 division
credit goes to chloe!!
okay... and other runners too lahh.
we also won the banner design comp.
cool huh
then there was cheerleading.
tiffany kept telling me "oeii. minmin's dancing!!"
i was like SOOOOOOO damn fed-up wif her i threatened to tell minmin what she said bout her.
then haiz. i dunno. she was like "LOOOOOK!!MINMIN!!"
then i was like "you like her THAT much issit. then go tell her lahh. you scared ahh. hiyaaaa i help you tell lorr."
fr the way she 'observes' minmin so closely, i can infer that she AHEM crush minmin.
HARHAR.
and you noe what she asked me.
she asked if minmin was chio.
i din ans that qn.
but i bet. i BET she thinks minmin is chio.
i bet she'd like minmin to be her direct.
yahh lahh.
minmin can be fun at times but strict when she's taking me.
btw. all of a sudden, jia min and minmin become so nice.
like so smiley. ORHHHHH. must haf read my post on how they dun smile right.
HARHAR.
then aniwaes. minmin gave me a 10 minute water break.(cos she din noe what to teach me)
all that time i din noe what to do lorr.
just loittering(ok.my sp sux) arnd
then i went back to the walkway and minmin was practicing her trumpet.
so i decided to give her time to practice.
i was standing RIGHT behind her all the time and guess what. she din notice me.
i felt weird mann.
ohh and you noe what.
MINMIN IS SHO NICE!!
she actually offered to tutor me!!
so nice of her right.
esp when she's so busy herself.
what she said: can look for her for hist cos she's a HISTORY STUDENT!! then eng can ask her. geog ok lahh. hcl cannot. the 3 sciences also cannot. then her maths can't make it.
right. MY EVERYTHING CAN'T MAKE IT.
and she kept telling me my slurs can make it. can make it. can make it.
she likes to kua wo horr. when i noe it isn't even true.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!
then you noe what.
MY SALIVA CLOTH IS FULL OF CHOCOLATE!! the one jia min and minmin gave us on april fools day.(as in the choc) hiyooooooo. then horr. this wk i've been so busy.
hardly haf time to prac my trumpet.
french controle 1 is on FRIDAY!!
oh btw. mr wolfe told us he was writing comments about us already.
does that mean we're getting our report cards soon?? as in aft all our summatives?!?!
i guess so. i dun look forward to it.
just will see big fat Fs everywhere.
comments'll be arghhh.
tell me. hist pt is supposed to be handed in next wk and i hafn't even started.
we just got our sc pt today.
then we got our lit pt last wk
SIGHHHHH
i die.
totally. i mean. realli.
i(or rather we) hafn't bought syf prezzies for our seniors yet and syf is on FRIDAY.
then i THINK i can go but then i oso THINK i can't go cos i dunno whether can skip formative.
then i asked kimberley whether we shd go and ask teacher but she din want to.
she said her seniors'll write an excuse letter.
i don't think mine will.
i've still got piles of undone hw. aiming to finish it by tonite.
but it's IMPOSSIBLE.
i wanna finish it so i can study properly for french 2mr.
SIGHHHHHHH
wish me good luck.
i need all the luck i can get.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHning off.........

2005-04-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

mann.
controle 1 is coming up soon
nxt week
15 april
which also means..
syf is coming soon too
shucks.
i've yet to buy syf prezzies for my seniors.
WHAT TO BUYYYYYYY
i seriously dunno.
haiz
wanted to share prezzies wif wei qi and kai chi at first
budden like not nice lahh
then i wanted to write note 2gthr wif them to our seniors
budden wei qi dun want
so i write myself lorr
but i hafn't write yet.
maybe i'll write later.
provided i finish my homework
(which is absolutlely IMPOSSIBLE)
cos i still haf hist pt
bleah!!
mr wolfe says he reads our blogs
i wonder...
and i was like
hiya he can't find my blog lahh!!
budden for a moment i forgot
he found si min's blog
and si min linked me
which means he read my blog
if u're out there reading this mr wolfe.
hello
but shucks i dun think teachers shd be reading our blogs
invade in our privacy
i mean.
HELLO!?!?
we need our own privacy ok?
i don't mean to be rude but.........
ok so back to syf prezzies
i wonder what to buy.
i wonder what my seniors like.
hmmm
but then horr
i gotta buy same thing for everyone so it's fair mahh
BUT WHAT TO BUYYYYYY
i doubt our seniors know me and wei qi found the their old batch blog
ahhahahahaha
but aniwaes
i guess
what i'll buy'll be veh lame
and i bet they deserve more than that
shucks
WHAT TO BUYYYYYY
apparently i saw the sec 2 and 3 trumpeters hafing sectionals
and yi qing was conducting them(i tink)
i saw AHEM AHEM AHEM AHEM AHEM.
yup
i veh scared nxt time i'll AHEM AHEM AHEM AHEM AHEM.
right.
so i'll try to write to them
maybe i'll try with the sec 3s first since i know them better
i hope my note will help them although i dun think it will
HARHAR.
so jia min and minmin
if u're reading this argh.
check ur envelope soon yea.

2005-04-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPI B'DAE 1/4!!!
HAPPI APRIL FOOLS!!
toking bout april fools...
todae our directs were veh evil lorr
they played a trick on us
and evil trick
i shall show you what i posted on her gb

"AHEM!!!!tell you this is gonna be a long msg... how cld yall be sho evil?!?!? fancy tricking us liddat. esp. me. yi qing din do anithing to kai chi's instru. jia min put ONE of wei qi's valves the wrong way round. YOU put TWO of my valves the wrong way round. WHAT THE?!?!? do i look like sumone who is easily bullied?!?! kaye... MAYBE i do. im not aware of it either but... HOW CLD YOU?!?! make me feel sho.. AHEM guilty. YOU CHEATED MY FEELINGS!!! arghhhh and then aft you changed my third valve i still couldn't play 'cos the DAMN THING MOVED. so then you helped adjust it AGAIN. then i cld play. not well i noe.. ok. you were the best actress among yi qing, jia min and you. u seemed the most pissed. angry. fed-up. that explains why i felt sho guilty. but i had ABSOLUTELY NTH TO BE GUILTY ABOUT!!! YOU CHEATED MY FEELINGS!!! yahh wadeva.. april fools. all your fault. HRRMPH!! now i seem like i'm scolding you. no im NOT. im just letting out all my AHEM anger. not to say im angry. im just ARGHHH!!!! ok fine. angry at you for CHEATING MY FEELINGS." - from vbasnmersdsdas

i reckon u've read it.
i shan't explain any further.
if u wish to find out more
pls do not hesitate to look for my d-d senior,
minmin at the sec 3 band cor on tues or thurs or ani other day she is there
or if u can't find her,
u may go to class 3/06 to look for her
or drop a note in her class tray
she'd be more than glad to tok bout it since she's happi she tricked her juniors
DO NOT LOOK FOR ME
I WILL NOT PROVIDE U WIF ANI INFO UNLESS I FEEL LIKE IT
IM SERIOUS
ohh btw
i quoted "YOU CHEATED MY FEELINGS" from penelope
thx but sry if it's copyrighted><
but i wun bother to change it aniwaes...........

2005-03-30T15:12:00.000+08:00

ookies..
i hafn't blogged for veh long...
but shan't update u...
too lazy lahh
shall just tell u roughly what i want to say
or at least what i can rmb..
yesterday we got back our english test and petit test 2
I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE HALF THE CLASS FAILED ENGLISH
yeahh
it's true
17/36 failed
fine.. i rounded it off
but still...
that's baaaaaaaaaad
guess wad
our english teacher resigned!!!
happyhappyhappy
he can't teach
that explains why of all the 3 classes he taught..
the highest mark is onli 18/25
yup
but i lucky lahh
i passed^^
just passed
not 12.5..
fine come straight to the point
i got 15
low lahh
i noe
but at least i passed mahh
french
im so glad i improved!!
i got 11.5/15 for petit test one
this time.. i got..
13
yep
not great lahh
but controle 1 is cuming up soon
SHIT LAHH
I DIE
SO HARD
guess we're gonna get back history test soon
btw..
toking bout hist..
we got a pt todae
rite
i'll start using the com a lot again
and boy..
i gotta go read sing to the dawn now lahh
the whole book kaye..
by 2mr
ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!

2005-03-28T18:14:00.000+08:00

jump to recruit band todae..
mr oura came dunno how late.
then he kept getting fone calls
wadeva
the mone we're paying
at this rate
it's simply NOT WORTH IT
fine we're learning sth new
but then.........
he made us play high-low-high-low notes continuously
eight counts i think
then aft that he made the trumpets play
the h-l-h-l thingy
then he made me play sth(shucks.. forgot)
then he made me hold the trumpet wif one hand onli while he did the fingerings
then he made me play the thing myself
then u noe what he said?!?!
SEE!! WHEN I DO THE FINGERINGS FOR HER IT SOUNDS MUCH BETTER
yahh..
wadeva..
show-off.
then he told me
U HOLD THE TRUMPET WITH YOUR LEFT HAND AND JUST FOCUS ON PLAYING THE TRUMPET WITH THE RIGHT HAND
yahh..
wadeva..
not my fault..
I WASN'T TOLD WHAT.
arghhhhhh
every wk gotta bring home my instru
i think my arm's gonna break anitime
heex
ookies
gtg go lahh
piano lesson now..><

2005-03-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

it's good friday today!!!
it's today that Jesus died on the cross for our sins
he bore our sins and infirmities
he saved us
were supposed to go see the sunrise today..
but din go in the end..
lolz.. dunno why
well...
im kinda looking forward to sunday
when Jesus will be resurrected
He lives!!
hmms...
wad's the diff between presbytarians[sp?]
and methodists
and catholics??
sigh aniwaes
here's a song
it's veh meaningful
i lurv it

"Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours"

2005-03-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

ahhahahahahahaha
guess wad time it is now..
can check urself lahh
YAY!!!!!! I FINALLY FINISHED GEOG PT
am toking to guo tong
yeahh
ohh ok
i think now im gonna show u the convo between si min n me
"my sis and minmin reads ur blog lehh"
"what?!?!?! really?!?!?!"
"yahh.. my sis reads all the band ppl's blogs"
"omg.. tt means she and minmin read all my posts?!?!?!"
"uh-huh"
"ohh gosh.."
*a long pause.......*
si min: "heyy u crush minmin right??"
"OEIII!!!!!!!!! WHO SAY ONE?!?!?! OMG WAHH LAUU!!!!!!"
"..."*keeps mum
ok so i wanna say this loud and clear
that i dun crush minmin
neither do i have any crushes
stoopid
eeeeeps!
look at the time!!!!
i'll nv be able to wake up 2mr!!!!
arghhhhhh
good morning!!!!

2005-03-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

chio?? DUH!!!! presenting ms tjhia lie ting!!!!

2005-03-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

ok
right now i'm here crapping away
while my seniors are reading my blog!!!!
oh that is so shitty
so i've gotta be careful in everything i say
haiz
aniwaes
had petit test 2 todae..
conjugation was really easy
but i think i failed the articles part
die larr
i got the stupid medicin thingy wrong oso
the interrogation dunno whether correct or not....
CA1 is coming up
mlle ng told us wad was tested
here's the list:
- spelling[5 sentences]
- grammar which includes
*conjugation
*preposition
and sum others i guess
- listening compre
*match pics to sth[i 4got]
*true or false
and sum others i guess
- comprehension
-cloze passage
-rearrange sentences
-negation
-essay
a lot of things right??
so stupid
hate it
then in May we haf CA2
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ooooooooo am i dead
penelope is damn pro at french lorr
ohh and we went to ACM[asian civilisation museum] todae
was bit boring
din learn much..heex
was s c a r y
the place was so dark
and we went into this room
we were doing the qn
then sum ppl got restless and turned arnd
then we screamed
yupp..
we actually SCREAMED
we were so freaked out
u noe by wad??
it was damn stupid silly
a small boy
prob only 5 yrs old
he was lying on the chair listening to some s c a r y music
then we watched this realli b o r i n g show
and then went back to sch
were supposed to reach sch at 2.30
in the end we arrived at sch at 3
what the?!?!?!?!?!
soooo then i went fer french
omg i was so n e r v o u s
first the teacher told us some news
b a d news
then she started the test immediately
how does she expect us to do well??
arghhhhh
aniwaes
im noe im not gonna score
i dun expect to aniwaes
argh merde!!!
gotta go do research for sum excursion to sun yat sen nanyang memorial hall
then do geog pt
can't stand it
can't take it animore
suffering from
insomia.depression.stress
and on top of it all
i've been putting on weight
a lot of weight
i can't believe it
the rate im putting on weight is like
wahhhhhhhh
world record mann!!!!
i can eat one meal and put on a kg
how it happens??
how am i supposed to noe
i used to eat a heavy recess
large lunch
tea
big dinner and dun grow fat, as in dun put on weight
now it's totally the opposite
rmb the other time i was sick and din eat for 24 hrs[not a lot]
and i lost
3kg!!!!!!!
wahh i can't believe it myself
it's a miracle
tong chang shi ppl see then they believe
budden
i believe that if i first believe
i will see it being manifested
ooooooo
on sunday my family's gonna wake up super early to watch the sunrise
east coast park
easter mahh
yeahh
the resuraction of Christ
soooooooo
dunno whether i shd look 4ward to it or not........

"there can be miracles..when you believe"

2005-03-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!!
my senior's not angry wif me animore!!!!
but..
note the word animore...
it means she was angry wif me in the first place
lucky she's not xiao qi
otherwise i realli dunno wad to do
haiz
me and my BIG FAT STINKY MOUTH
SLAP MY FACE
OOOOF
WAKE ME UP
IM STILL IN DREAMLAND
IM OBLIVIOUS TO MY SURROUNDINGS
HELP.........
HELP ME OPEN MY EYES
TO SEE THE WURL......
THE SUN'S SHINING DIRECTLY IN MY EYE
WHICH MEANS U'VE HELPED ME ACHIEVE WHAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
THANK YOO
U MADE A GR8 BIG DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE
i lurv yoo <3<3<3<3
xoxo....

2005-03-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

went to east coast park.
cycled bout 15km
according to my uncle
i think tt's not much
cos i wasn't at all tired
sigh
the hols r gonna end soon
veh soon
im gonna miss it
and shit!!!
i still hafta study fer french
and finish my ABSOLUTELY STUPID geog pt
STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID
just like me
STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID

2005-03-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
I CUT MY HAIR
IT'S FREAKINGLY SHORT
[well, at least according to me]
nth much to say today except
I HATE THE LENGTH OF MY HAIR
I TOTALLY HATE IT
MY HAIR NOW IS LIKE TOTALLY MESSY
ALL THE TIME
HATE IT
TOTALLY HATE IT.......

2005-03-16T15:06:00.000+08:00

back from band camp!!!!!!
camp was so fun
but now-first thing i wanna do is
apologise to my senior
if u're reading dis, minmin,
i dunno why, but
we hafn't been toking or even
hafing eye contact fer veh long oledi lehh
it's lyke wo men zai bi kai dui fang
why larr
cos i dun wanna live thru band life
hafing a senior hu ignores her junior
and i bet u dun wanna haf a junior hu ignores her senior rite??
and i dun get why
during sec one auditions
u were so smiley
so friendly
and i was liddat tooz cos u kept smiling
budden now..................................
ohhhh btw
if u're doing so cos u heard me complaining bout u
then sry
realli sry
i noe i can't take back wad i said but i can't act as if nth eva happened
ohh mann
now im toking lyke ***[not the correct no of *s]
im not begging fer ur forgiveness
ohhhhh well...
it's all realli up to u larr
sigh why wadeva i sae cums true
i tok bout u then i see u
i.... haiz nvm larr
n then in ur blog i sae dun dao me
budden u dao me
nvm im toking crap here...
shall tell ya bout band camp

Day 1:
I reached sch at 7+ then we had icebreakers. After that we had item prep in which we had to put up a performance for the main band. Everyone decided on a skit. Shall elaborate on this later. Then we had lunch-the noodles were veh nice lorr!!! Subsequently we had band icebreakers where we had self-intro and played captain's ball. We played against the sec 3s first budden, we lost miserably*lolx*. Then we played against the sec 2s(hu lost to the sec 4s) and we lost again... wahahahaha but it was quite close... our excuse for losing-haiz...we dun want our seniors to lose face so we let them win lorr...hahaha..ok then we had recruit band..can't sae it was interesting but..yeah.then we took our bathe, had item prep and then went for dinner. After dinner, we went to the KS Chee theatre to do envelope-making..only thing was that we din haf to make the envelopes, we juz decorated it. Purpose of this envelope-making in our section-batch mates was to send notes of encouragement to anyone in band cos SYF is cuming soon-in April... Aha! After that, we had mutual sharing.. wahh lauu!!!! It was damn fun lorr-probably the best part of band... my section senior (yi qing) was in my grp.. jia yun was also in my grp (i stepped on her foot during captain's ball...pai seh pai seh) sumone told us a ghost story which i heard b4 and then we played sum veh lame games kinda lyke IQ games (e.g. "The light shines from here, the light shines from there. Who is the light shining on??") yeahh..that lame... woo-hoo!!! we had free time after that in which OBVIOUSLY we din make use of the time to practise our item... that night i slept nxt to yu qing and wei qi.. haiz...i cldn't sleep the whole nite lorr... i wasn't in my sleeping bag so it was realli cold n i was kinda frozen to death...sigh..i din sleep the whole nite lehh..or mayb i did fer a few minutes.. there were a few instances where i woke up n thot it was 6.30 oledi budden i turned out to be lyke 1 still??im so tired..

Day 2:
I woke up terribly early and cldn't sleep back-well i din sleep at all anywaes... after washing up we had breakfast with our section mates.. haiz i tell ya how my sec 4 section senior is lyke arghh... she's super funni lorr...and her laugh is soOOoo extremely contagious.. hear her laugh and u're doomed-u'll be laughing the whole day...during breakfast, Jasmine (the sec 4 funni senior) was puting cereal into a cup with milk and shared it with minmin...wahh i tell u arghh...she was damn funni lorr..she was lyke saying "This is our sweet milk!!!" geddit?? sweet milk??? omg everyone burst out laughing larr... After that we were forced to get outa our laughing mood and go fer recruit band. Since Mr Oura cldn't take us, the student conductors (han xin and jasmine chua [my section senior]) took us. *OOOOFF* then after that we we taught 2 band cheers in which we sounded lyke ants... we played games including the maffia game where i, the innocent person was killed. Hu's the stupid idiot hu made me die harr??? she's soOOoo gonna die...Yeahh...then we had free time!!! hai then we had to sit in at the KS Chee to listen to the section testing... was quie boring i muz admit but i think my seniors played realli well-my goal-to play as well as them. We had our bathe then mutual sharing which was soOOoo fun.. i was in guo tong's grp.. thruout the whole mutual sharing she kept looking at me.. spoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooky...sleeping time!!

Day3:
Yesterday i slept better than the night b4. We had breakfast then had some activities. We had games after that in which we were put into groups randomly and we had to guess what movie the games commitee was talking about by the clues we received when we won a game against another team... my team was called the incredibles.. and our cheer was lyke.. ermm.. can i say lame?? yeahh so it went "go, go, incredibles.. xx is a chio bu.. go,go incredibles..yeah!!" yeahh
ok then we had presentation of our item, which i thot was quite farni... i lurved the sec 2s, 3s and 4s items!!! YAY!!!! ok.. i veh emotional wan horr... so i thot their items were veh the touching larz... soooo... goshh i can't wait fer nxt yr's band camp!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR'S BAND CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!! will there be section chalet this yr?? i kinda hope there is... woo-hoo!!!! lolx..aniwaes this yr's band camp was realli awesome...i can't wait for nxt yr's band camp!!!! I REALLY CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! only one thing i can say now... i think i've fallen in lurv wif band............<3<3<3

2005-03-13T14:17:00.000+08:00

ok dis damn com erased all i typed in
soOOoo
back from church!
im feeling much beta
i guess im gonna perish the thot of attempting suicide
well-for now
i learnt in sunday skool
everyone has a gift from God
and i figured my gift from God is STUPIDITY
but i shan't elaborate
i thot i'd share sth i learnt in church todae

"the onli reason why a life is screwed up is cos God is not in the centre of it"

in every journey, there is a meaning
in every conflict there is growth
in every action there is a purpose
in every moment of doubt, remember to believe in the lord

"there is no road too hard when we walk by his side"

one night a man had a dream.
he dreamt that he was walking along the beach with the Lord
across the sky flashed scenes from his life
for each scene he noticedtwo sets of footprints in the sand:one belonging to him, the other to the Lord
when the last scene of his life
flashed before him
he looked back at the footprints
in the sand

he noticed that many times
along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints
he also noticed that it happened
at the very lowest and saddest
times in his life

this really bothered him
and he questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once i decided to follow you
you'd walk with me all the way
but i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints
i don't understand why when i needed you most
you would leave me."

the Lord replied:
"my son, my precious child,
i love you and i would never leave you
during the times of trial and suffering
when you see only one set of footprints
that was when that i carried you."

i really want to reach out to all the non-christians out there
to accept Jesus Christ
as ur Saviour
and he will lurv u n guide u 4eva
for Jesus never fails me

=the onli reason why a life is screwed up is cos God is not in the centre of it=

2005-03-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

TODAE WAS SWIM CARN!!!!!!
IT WAS DAMN FUN LORR!!!!!!
but awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww_
i'm soOOoo disappointed..
i thot the cheerleaders were gonna perform fer us
turned out they DIDN'T
so i din get to see minmin dancing
haiz
buy aniwaes..
swim carn is still veh fun
waddle came in third!!!!
dat's not bad
n lolx
richard[short fer richardson] has been winning swim carn all these yrs..
but hahaz
dis yr tarbet won!!!!
lemme show u da results of '05's swim carn
1st-tarbet
2nd-richardson
3rd-waddle
4th-buckle
5th-hadley
wahahaha
i screamed so much my voice is hoarse now
im practically deaf
but aniwaes
2mr is my grade 6 theory exam
if i fail
i'll hafta redo it
so i gotta go study now
btw
dis yr's theme is "Unity in Community"

2005-03-10T21:07:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!
2MR IS SWIM CARN!!!!!
I'M COUNTING THE HOURS
THE MINUTES
GOSHHHHH
IM SooOOoo EXCITED MANN!!!!!
ohh btw...
my direct-direct senior will be cheerleading ehhh
yeahhh
get to see her in...ermmm
the REVEALING cheerleading costume
lala~
omg
i can't imagine her in it
she's ALWAES been so serious n stuff
but 2mr....
she will be smiling a lot
i betcha
awwwwwwwwwwwwwww
but too bad waddle won't be sitting nxt to buckle
haiz
toking bout minmin
the sec 4s will be taking us starting nxt term fer 1 term!!!!
im soOOoo NOT looking forward to it
the other dae
i saw the trumpeters being scolded by sumone
ohhhh zut
merde!!!!!
seems they're scarier
stricter than minmin
i'll die*faints*
aniwaes
minmin yeahhh
she'll be cheerleading 2mr
i saw her on wed practicing her moves
they're all so ewwwwwwwwwwwwww
to me, dat is
todae
i saw her cuming out fr the band cor
i was hanging arnd doing nth
cos my mum had sth on
n she told me to wait fer her
i wanted to take the bus but i 4got to bring my ez-link card
stupid right??
aniwaes
she said hi
without smiling
as per normal
ohhh yarr
ya noe..
all the other hses oledi got their hse t-shirts
onli waddle hasn't
n we haf to wear it 2mr
we're onli getting it 2mr morning lehh
so late rite??
hiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aniwaes
i shan't blog animore
cos im tooooooo excited to blog animore
or else i'll go on n on n on 4eva
lolx
buaiz!!!!xD
believe i'll haf a wunderful time 2mr @ swim carn!!!!
xoxo....*jumps up n down*
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-09T16:18:00.000+08:00

ok now
I CAN'T WAIT FER SWIM CARN!!!!!!
I'M BURSTING WIF ENERGY!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT SIMPLY CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!
ohhh wadeva
u might tink i've gone bonkers
well...
yes actually
judging fr the no of tests i haf dis wk
here's a list to tell ya
-mon>hcl test
-tues>eng n math test
-wed>hand up geog pt draft
-thurs>lit test
-fri>SWIM CARN!!!!!
-sat>theory exam
lets see wassup fer nxt wk
-band camp>fr mon to wed
-hwhwhwhwhwhwhwhw[geog pt]
tink dat's bout it
oh well
aniwaes...
im quite busi now
so shall blog more nxt time!

2005-03-07T08:29:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl!!!
i juz gave my blog a BIG face lift
yep
nice ain't it
ohhh btw
sth's wrong wif me lately
i dunno y
but everywhere i go
seems dat minmin - my direct-direct senior
is always appearing in front of me
but then when i look closer
it's not her
omg
i must be halucinating
honestly arghhh
mayb
i m scared of her
i dunno larr
mayb cos
hiya
ohhhhhh yeah!!!
today i saw an actress at church!
i dunno her name though...
awwwwwwwww_
n soOOoo many tests r cuming up
n i hafn't studied
or prepared for them
*hyperventilates*
awwww mann
guess if dat's the case
i beta go now

2005-03-06T05:24:00.000+08:00

back fr founder's day!!!
ohh gosh
it was damn fun
n i thot it wld b boring
first of all
the band [yayness!!!!!]played the national anthem
n the sch song[i'm in band!!!yoo-hoo!!wae to go mann!!!!]
it was realli well played n i spotted
my direct-direct senior playing!!!
how cool is dat
ok then mrs d. tan-our principal
gave a speech
n then our guest of honour
gave another speech
n ended off wif saying
she's fr WADDLE!!!!!![yayness!!!!!again]
[yeahhh...i'm fr waddle]
101 performed a dance item
the indian cultural society did a dance
the artistic gymnastics gave a brilliant show
then the band-age played a few songs
followed by the TEACHERS playing summore songs!!!!
can u believe dat???
TEACHERS!!!!!!
everyone sang along
linked hands
ohhhh all in all we had a gr8 time!!!!
ok then i went for a geog make-up lesson
we learnt sth to do wif diff times arnd the wurll
quite interesting larr
aniwaes
founder's day was realli extremely damn fun lorr
can't wait fer nxt year
i tink i'll b playing in the band then
soooooooooooo
yeahh
btw...band rox!!!!![so far]
[can b a real torture at times though...]

2005-03-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

awwwww mann
wad a baaaaaaaaaaaaad dae it was
shan't tok bout skool
but 2dae fer french we had this
realli stupid idiotic relief teacher
who kept speaking french
n pointing at ppl to answer qns
u noe...
i was called [or u can sae picked on]
4 times!!!!!!
omg
i hate him
arghhhhhhhhh
aniwaes
2mr is founder's day!!
i can wait
hu noes how boring it will be??
oh well
gotta get up early 2mr
arghhhhhhhhhhhh
so... gdnite

2005-03-04T14:01:00.000+08:00

awwwww mann...
im feeling realli depressed 2dae...
soOOoo much hw n
soOOoo many probs...
sighhhhh
i wonder how my seniors cope lorr
sum r involved in many things
lyke cheerleading
3rd lang
cca-lyke choir which requires u to stay back practically EVERYDAY
n other activities
mayb church stuff
or ballet
or exams...
they still do soOOoo well lorr
y can't i do it
y not
im juz soOOoo stupid
ohh gosh
im soOOoo stressed up
soOOoo pressurised
my theory exam is cuming up in 2 wks n i hafn't started studying
i keep failing the test papers im given
keep making my piano teacher upset
she muz feel lyke a total failure lorr
i wanna scream
ohh zut!![btw zut is a nice wae of saying SHIT!!!!]
yeahh
wadeva
mann...
o de xin qing shi fei bi muo suo neng xing rong de...
sigh...
one thing i dun understand bout myself
if i haf soOOoo much to doy m i still here???
to relax?
probably since i dun get to watch tv...
or wad else
okkkkk...
i guess i wun tok bout this animore...
let's tok bout my dae 2dae...
2dae in sch was pretty ok...
french
aha! french!
i juz transfered to a new class 2daen the teacher is realli fast...
i can't catch up
dun understand her...
wad's moreshe's gonna leave the moelc
fer q long cos she's gonna haf a baby
yeahh
so in the meantime i hope our relief teacher is my previous teacher,
miss noreen au
the hod of french
she teaches realli well lorr
she's oso veh nice n patient
n ohhh
im currently missin' my old class lyke shit
n my teacher tooz
oh well
band can b a total torture tooz...
[hope my senior isn't reading dis...]
on monday mr oura din take the trumpets
[yupp i play the trumpet]
so we had indiv[dat's wad my seniors call it-it's individual prac time]
u noe...
my seniors r all veh nice
onli one thing
they nva smile wan...
esp my direct-direct senior...
everytime she sees me lian hei hei wan...[no offence!!!]
i think i complain lotsa timesif she eva reads this...
im soOOoo dead lorr
she'll hate me 4 eternity...
cos her trumpet's her bao bei n she lurvs to play it...
haha!
dunno larr
aniwaes...
O lvl results were out yesterdae...
rg did realli well
outa the 21 ppl hu scored 10 A1s n above,
12 ppl were fr our sch lehh!!!
kewl rite??
yeah
n further more arghh
my fwen got 10 A1s n 1 A2 lehh
im soOOoo impressed
soOOoo jealous
wish i could do as well as her
she is involved in soOOoo many things n yet
she does soOOoo well lorr
arghhh!
i feel soOOoo inferior to her
n my seniors
n my fellow lvl mates
n sch mates
to everyone
kkkk
im a complain queeni lurvvvvv to complain lorr
but shall stop hereit's getting late n i haf to complete my hw...
so long!
farewell![wadeva...]

2005-02-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

guess wad...
todae i found out my angel's blog!
she din tell me...
i found it by total accident!
yeah!
kewl horr
im soOOoo happi
but i wanna noe more bout her lehh
juz fer ur 411...her blog is veh nice-
www.blue_duckling.blogspot.com
*quack quack*waddle rox!*screams!!*
yeah...
wadeva...
juz lyke dat larr
bb
oh wait! hold on!!!
i've found out hiya...
u may think dis is lame
cos many ppl noe how they're angels look lyke
n hu dey r...
but i'm realli happi to find out more bout her!
yeah mann!!!!
i'm feeling soOOoo high^^
im flying^^
oh well...
howeva...
i've got lotsa hw...
*sigh*
aniwaes...
dat's bout it larr
i'd realli lyke to thank
204'05's audrey
cos i managed to find out soOOoo much more bout my angel
thru her blog!
i'd lyke to thank
104'05's si hui
fer giving me audrey's blog
so i can find out soOOoo much bout my angel
realli
thx soOOoo much
k...
wadeva
this is lame...